Classy not Trashy

"Tonight I'm going to tell you why you should buy my soul."

So, tonight I had to give a persuasive impromptu speech for my Business and Professional Communications class.  I had three minutes to come up with a two minute speech on my choice of three subjects given to me to sell.  My options were shoes, a diamond ring, or my soul, and of course, I picked my soul.

For the speech, we had to present three reasons why the class would want to buy the item you were trying to sell, and be as energetic as possible.  Each person got a list of three things, two of which were generic, and one that was pretty out there and a lot more creative.  Of course the majority of the class picked the generic item, like a colored printer or condo.  A select few of us picked the interesting ones, including a nuclear weapon, a night out with Lindsey Lohan, and my soul.

My three reasons that somebody would want to purchase my soul were: 

1) You have a spare just in case you do something that isn’t exactly going to be impressive to the ‘big guy’.

2) You can sell your extra soul to the devil and get that $6.2 million dollar house you have always dreamed of, do extraordinary in the stock market, or marry Brad Pitt.

3) You can brag to all your friends and family.   Having an argument with a friend that is reaching a stalemate?  “Yeah, well I have two souls!  What now?!”

Obviously I added more wit and sarcastic humor, as it needed to last two minutes, but I think I did extremely well.  I not only managed to make my fellow classmates laugh, but myself as well.

An Uphill Battle

Three years ago I was a size 1 and around 115 pounds.  I don’t even want to think about what I weigh now, because it will just depress me.  I recently cut meat completely out of my diet and have started eating ridiculous amounts of fruits and vegetables.  My goal is to lose 20 pounds by mid May. 

Going to the gym is obviously ideal, unfortunately hard to fit in my ridiculous schedule.  Between 15 credits and 35 hours of work during the week, there is no time to get to the gym before it closes.  My new “workout method” of choice is Dance Dance Revolution mixed with 10 pound weights.  500-1000 calories burned a night will hopefully take to me to my goal. 

We’ll see I suppose. 

Finally Letting Go

So, as I stated yesterday, my grandmother is dying of cancer and I am having some issues dealing with it.  I feel like I have to be the strong one in my family, as I always have been, and cannot cry in front of them.  Last night around midnight I just broke, and sat in my car for nearly an hour and wept.  I cannot remember the last time I cried so hard, and I am having blended feelings about it.  I feel weak and vulnerable because I let myself get like that, but it also felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders.

Everybody cries, I know this better than anyone, but it doesn’t mean I like it happening to me. 

How to Deal?

So, as a lot of people know, illness and disease tends to haunt me.  Not directly, but the people I love.  Well, it has struck again.

I found out today that my grandmother has cancer in her brain, breasts, and groin.  I have no idea how to handle this, considering my usual way is to supress it, until it eats me up and I explode about 4 months after the incident.  I can’t just shut down, so I am trying to focus on something a little less traumatic, like how much I hate SMPs new layout, or the fact that my PS2 hasn’t come in the mail yet.

I think the hardest part of this all is that I have to go back to a place that I have worked so hard to get away from.  The mindset that getting close to someone just brings more heartache in the end.  When Andy died, my whole life fell apart.  It was extremely sudden, and obviously unexpected, and the fact that he was only 20 killed me.  He was one of my best friends, and the best person I knew; so full of life.  He saw the beauty in everything, and never took a day for granted.  I know most people say things like that about someone after they die, but in this case, it is actually legit.  He hated sleeping, because it took time away from really living. 

This situation is obviously different.  I have a chance to say goodbye, but how do you say that to somebody?  How do you put into words everything you are feeling.  I am scared shitless of it.  I am terrified of going into that hospital room and seeing someone who has always been such a rock, so weak.  That, however, is not what I am dreading the most.  It’s the funeral that is eating me alive.  She’s not even gone yet, and all I can think about is that stupid funeral.  I have a tendency to be rather inappropriate in times of devestation because I don’t know how to act.  I distance myself so I won’t hurt as much.  It’s how it went with my dad, and I hope it doesn’t with my grandpa.  I can’t see my grandpa in pain.  I don’t know how to be strong for my family, when I can’t even deal with this myself.

I just don’t know what to do.  

Speaking of inappropriateness, let’s hope this isn’t the case.

“When it’s time to die, let us not discover that we have never lived.”

             —Henry David Thoreau

Habitat for Humanity

Human Conflict

National Pie Day!!

So, today I was informed it is one of the most fabulous days ever, National Pie Day. In fact, it is so great, Bakers Square is giving every customer a free piece of pie, no purchase neccessary.

http://www.celebratepie.com/coupon.php

Go out and celebrate with the amazing and delectable food we call pie.

Another Night at the Gym

I’m pretty sure I’m cursed.  It seems as though the only time I see somebody I know, or haven’t seen since high school is when I’m either all sweaty and disgusting, or when I just woke up and still have bits of make up smeared all over my face. 

Anyways, about halfway through my work out I suddenly needed to throw up, so I booked it out of the gym and feel unsatisfied with my fitness level today.  Step Aerobics tomorrow!  Hopefully these flu symptoms will go away before then.

I am semi-freaking out about my classes tomorrow.  New major, new side of campus.  I’m not liking the side of campus my classes are on thus far.  It’s the side that is far away from any legitimate parking, and even farther from the Zelazo Center.  So lame. 

What a Shock.

So at 4pm this evening I was taken off guard by the news that Heath Ledger was pronounced dead. I can’t believe it. It’s so sad that such a brilliant actor, and somebody so young just died. :( It’s gonna be weird watching The Dark Knight.